Case Studies I wanted to kill my father
Stephanie kept a knife in her nightstand and thought of ways to kill her father every night...
It all started when I was 10 years old and began noticing that my dad was looking at me inappropriately. As time passed I noticed that he was seeing me more like a woman and not like a daughter. I hated him for that and this hatred only grew more the day he tried touching me.
It was very hurtful, I felt betrayed and depressed-anger towards my father was eating me inside. I tried speaking to my siblings and mother about the situation but they didn't believe me. I wanted to kill him—I kept a knife on the nightstand and thought of ways to kill him every night.
I avoided being home; I couldn't stand the thought of being in the same room or near my dad. I began cutting myself, physical pain was nothing compared to the pain I had inside.
I couldn't sleep with the lights off, I would hear voices and when I managed to sleep I would dream with the dead. I felt hopeless.
My mom was invited to the Cenacle of Faith and when she decided to go I came along. I never thought that the words that I heard that day would mark a new beginning in my life. During the meeting the pastor said that when you give your life to God your life changes. I took those words and told God that I wanted a new life, I was going to do my part and He had to do His. I began making the Chain of Prayer on Wednesdays, Fridays and Sundays and began seeing changes in my life.
The more I came, the more God gave me the strength to let go of all the hate and pain that I had been carrying for 5 years. I was able to forgive my dad and today my family and I are happy and continue to be blessed. I no longer hear voices, I don't feel depressed or lonely. Today I am a very happy person and I thank God for transforming my life.
-Stephanie Ramos
If you are going through a similar situation or have any kind of problems, visit the Cenacle of Faith and speak to the pastor.
